How do they feel?

Christmas is approaching.

One could feel the presence where the malls were filled with all sorts of christmas decorations and not forgetting the Christmas tree beautifully adorned with all types of decors. Some were carefully concepted based on seasons and christmas carols heard everywhere.

Last weekend, Pat and I went to Bukit Bintang for window shopping. There were this choir group performing at Lot 10. We stopped for a brief while from what we were doing and watched the performance. Listening to the christmas carols, suddenly I felt this pang of sadness in my heart. God knows why.

As I lie down that night, my mind drifted to Julian, Jemima, Joyce, Jacintha and Jeannette. Wondering what they were doing, if they are alright or not. Silent tears dropped down my cheek. My heart yearned to be with them, hugging them, talking and hearing from them, to say 'it's ok' to them, telling them how I love them more than life itself. I want to cry with them whenever they feel sad and missing him. And also to share the dread feeling of celebrating christmas alone without him.

Lord, please grant us strength and joy. Let your peace reign.

Again, in that poignant moment, thinking of my nephew and nieces having to spend their christmas without their father, I couldnt help but asked myself, how many others has to spend christmas without their father and mother this year? How does Cheryl, Joslyn, Debbie and Jonathan feels? How does Jerry feel? How does Labung, Mary, Mona, Mawan and Rebeca feel? And how about Carol, Darwin and Henny? not forgetting Jonathan and Timothy too? Their mom(Ellen) has gone home to be with the Lord this morning at 5am.

All I could give is....

Lord, please grant them peace, Joy and strength. Help us to come to the realization that this Christmas is all about You. All about You alone..for You are the everlasting Father that we always have...

..o night divine...o night when Christ was born
..o night divine...o night..o night divine